The ups and downs of it

Kaylee came home on Friday. I had no choice but to run around with her. It was great medicine! I missed her terribly and was so glad to be her #1 go-to person!

Saturday was rough.

Emotionally and physically, Matt and I were drained.

There was a lot of crying, doubt and fear.

It happens on this roller coaster of cancer. Remembering it will pass and I will feel healthy again was more than difficult.

Sunday was a turning point.

I ate well.

I drank a lot of water.

I laughed a lot with good friends.

And I shaved my head!

I feel like Natalie Portman in V for Vendetta.

I also had a great acupressure/reiki/massage session with Vanessa, my sister in law. She found a ginger tea that I love!

I felt reborn in positive energy and spirit.

And just in time, because Sunday night I left my family once again to stay at the RMH and resume treatment.

So, here I am.

I continue on my path of what seems to be most resistance, savoring the good days and pushing through the bad.

First cycle complete

A bunch more to go...

I'm now recuperating at home.

The chemo made me very ill. I'm still feeling it. I have hardly gotten out of bed the last few days.

Every day I'm a little better. I hope to go for a walk today.

Its hard to believe I'm going to go back next week.

But every week done is a week closer to being cured.

This week off has been especially hard because Kaylee has the chicken pox. She has to stay at her Grandma's until she is all better. I haven't seen her in over a week. I am beyond sad.

I hope to see her before my next treatment cycle. Her little hugs, giggles and smiles are the best motivation and cure for this cancer patient.

One week down

After only one week I can breathe out my nose.

I smelled flowers on the street.

Chemo certainly knows how to kill.

Unfortunately it does not distinguish cancer.

But today starts a new week and I'm feeling better.

My body knows how to heal.